This sucks. Right now I don't feel like I can talk to anyone. This year was off to an O K-ish start as of last night. O K, but not great. And today? It just made me think that this year is gonna bite. >< I want to SEE people! That's why I don't just go to a commuter college or something. I'm busy this year, yes, but I'm going to make an effort to see people! And no one seems to want to see anyone! I tried talking with people but eh! It's not the same. Even today...people don't want to seem to leave their rooms. Other than Adam...and he obviously would rather be in TB than anywhere else. Aka Hannah and Kye. Not sure who he wants to see more. But they seem to be the people he wants to be around. Plus he can be annoying at times.

Aaron was cranky sounding when I called him after HE called me. Then he told me Hannah will be in her room or the Comm building all this year. T_T April wasn't feeling good yesterday so that's reasonable. Kye wasn't feeling great today either. Which is again, reasonable to not hang out or anything. I saw her at work orientation then saw her and Adam outside together sitting and talking. UGH! I feel lost now. Without all the Class of '09 kids I feel like the people who wanted to get out and hang out are gone! Like everyone now is a hermit and individually focused. T_T Maybe Azali (awesomely cool online friend) will get to see me more than she thought. I may be RPing and blogging more than talking to real people...why? Because no one seems to want to hang out.

I even talked to Antonio...and when I told him...he said "So?". SO? It's not a SO thing for me. I'm in a single. If everyone stays in their respective rooms I'm solo. I HATE being alone. And if you know me you know that. It's something I despise. T_T I don't even know...I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about this. I might go to Krannert, just to try and see people, if I can stop myself from crying...which I don't know if I can. I hate this right now. School is supposed to be for seeing people...but now I want to see people and I can't seem to find anyone for too long if at all.

So far - school sucks this year. I hope that once classes get going people will be out more...but you never know. I may be keeping myself locked up again...and here I thought that wasn't possbile...being alone enough will do it though. I may go back to how I used to be..